Shadows of the Brain

All the colors left

2010-06-10T13:27:00.001-07:00

All the colors left

Man i dont know what the fuck happened,
i just dont seem to be graspin,
All the reality around my head,
I feel cold and dead lying in my bed,

Suddenly all the colors left,
just saw black and white,
became afraid to be out in the light,
Vegetated in the shadows of fright,

Became dead inside my eye,
saw the world from the other side,
see all the pain and wicked games,
became confused on who to blame,

I just felt down the floor,
of my old colorful world,
started feelin for the homeless and poor,
and disgusted at the ones with no pity,
livin in their golden empty city,

Now I am framed in a motionless blurr,
struck into this strange vision for sure,
while i smile like I dont care,
but i know silently the demons stare,

Will I ever leave this place,
and be back running in the rat race,
Or stay like this in this goddamned shit,
As I try to unclench my broken fists,

I sure miss the beautiful bright Color,
If you know the way out might follow,
just want to scream and Shout,
And let all the Anger out,

But for know i like feelin flat,
empty cold and black,
like a miserable churchrat.

Rama

19-02-2010

to Reflect or to Shine ?

2010-06-10T13:24:00.001-07:00

to Reflect or to Shine ?

Sometimes you dont believe what you see,
The warm Mist in your Mind confuses me,

What looks joyful might be a charade,
with tears buried deep behind the face,

What looks insane might be brilliant,
you just cant see with your darkened vision,

And what looks like love might be empty,
like a balloon deflating spontaneously,

And the choice has to be made again,
what do you trust and what not my friend,

What will be your reaction,
to somebody else's action,

Will you crawl inside your shell,
feeling weak needing outside help,

Will you act in anger created by fear,
destroying your energy while losing your tears,

Or will you Just Reflect someone else,
Acting out their outer skin,
Feelin safe in a state of mental Hell,

Is there another choice in this wicked world ?
To be feelin more then inner cold ?

To Shine might be Sublime,
Living from higher state of Mind,

But trouble is still for you to find,
evil spirits make you Cry,
Will feed off your inner Light.

dont know the answer to this dream,
but i try to Shine and Reflect,

To feel Alive And still be perplexed....

19-02-2010
Rama

The stars are falling

2010-06-10T13:22:00.000-07:00

The stars are falling

You're stuck in Darkness,
or stuck in the Light,
what the fuck you think you'll find,

love being suckered into one place,
having dinner off the mortal flesh of fame,
feeling loved by everyone thats blind,

Sucking up all the attention in your space,
keeping everybody happy in their chase,
Of an illusion that became you,
you lost yourself became a fool,

yeah, youre a real lightbringer,
with magical fingers,
a heartmelting smile,
catering the needs of soulless minds,

But now your'e on decline,
your shine from inside has died,
you gave all you had,
and got nothing lasting back,

So you descend into darkness,
and hide in your feelings of pain,
you dont even feel your soft flesh,
You left before you came,

and lived in vain,
but nomore pain,

Rama

19-02-2010

The Parasite

2010-06-10T13:20:00.000-07:00

The Parasite

All i want I will bleed,
I dont care what thou needs,

Really need to feed,
from your blood filled bones,
love the tasty things shown,

It sinks deep into your skull,
and eats untill it's full,

Ate your tongue bloody wet indeed,
while you screamed skinned alive like human sheep,

Crush your head with my black arrow,
love digging out your tasty bone marrow,

Feedings of your inner guilts,
of things thou never really didst,

We will make you pay forever,
Your Mind will Detach and sever,
In Utter desolation you discover,
That For you there's no tomorrow,

Better try to find the missing pieces,
of the devil's bloody leeches,
they move around like a riddle
too late, with your guts i have a fiddle,

You left your door unguarded,
So I could enter your Soul,
because you premature departed,
I'm eating through your hole,

At the end my dear dinner,
it's all your own fault,
you chose to be weak you sinner,
I only came here of your own accord,

Rama

2010

Ascension

2009-09-25T10:34:00.000-07:00

Always I am being tense,
feel like i have to jump a fence,
dont feel right on this sphere,
feel out of place in this life,

Must be wanting to go up,
Leave this insane place behind,
Seems thats the only open door,
Remains for me to find,

Everyday i start to feel more sick,
My limbs and mind feel heavy and sore,
Can't even move my eyebrows up,
Feels like my body won't contain me anymore,

The funny thing is i dont even care,
Feel so flat and empty,
Just found out life is not fair,
Is life my fate or my will ?

Once I wanted to get enlighted,
But the light showed the ugliness abound,
Pressured to be also a mindless drone,
If you cant beat you think to join,

But i chose the moral high road,
Rather leave then becoming a venomous toad,
My only way seems up the ladder,
Leaving this suit of organized cells behind,

But why am i here and now ?
Did i come here by my free will ?
Or was i trapped even before birth ?
When I Stepped into this wicked Earth,

I just dont know,I just dont know,
I just dont know,I just dont know,

Maybe I am already everything i can be,
Maybe Ascension is just an easy way out,
Ending the game before it is played,
Leaving the Arena before the final show,

Let's see what the future holds,
And if my Mind will get stronger or Die and Fold.

I just dont know,
I REALLY dont know sHITE ,

Lost my Self

2009-03-16T02:41:00.000-07:00

Fighting the system makes it stronger,
You feed it with violent energy you monger,
The beast is of A poisonous vibe,
Your energy resonates with the evil side of life,

This represses your natural creative flow,
Your aspirations and selfesteem get low,
this constant struggle within
Leaves your soul skinnythin,

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As this selfmurder goes ahead,
Feeling low and dying you are left,
Feel the lowest you have ever felt,
Outbursts of dark lifeforce bombshell,

You become a sick twisted figure,
A psychotic perversion lingers,
Saldy there's always a victim,
yourself, another but never the system,

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World around you is a an economic prison,
Bound to the chains by financial reasons,
Whenever there's sense a of freedom,
Forces of repression once again come,

As you try to behave and follow your leader,
You do what is expected, never be blasphemous,
You subject yourself to mental violence,
Needing strange love and acceptance,

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Starring in this motion picture for the senses,
while you hide behind your mental fences,
Drugs can bend the mind back to a healthy state,
Before the adaptation and surrender ever took place,

But the six six six,
Controls you with your needed fix,
Receive a pleasant numbness,
But after the heaven the hell gets worser ,

Down the spiral of life you go,
You gave up and was left without hope,
Deep within you want to leave this psychotic prison,
But bound by fear you keep in check , son,

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The Massive megaritual shituations,
Keep your con-fused mind depending infantation,
The mental lock gives a fixatic pertuberation,
You live in a tunnelvision messianistic heaven,

Became a victim of your own beliefs,
Opened up too much, lost your precious shield,
A black hole appeared inside your aura,
It sucked out your pure light ashtara,

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The empty ones rule this sick world,
Make your mind fold and curl,
They externalize their pathological inner state,
Into your life night and day,

As within as without,
Patterns of action reflect the inner crowd,
From outside they are an human being,
From inside they are many, for they are LEGION,

It's a spiritual battle in high places,
The same people have different faces,
On tv they look like arch-adversary's,
But THEY LIVE, they are the same demonfairies,

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Go left or right,
Choose liberal or conservative,
Be kapitalistic or communistick,
Fight for peace or fight for empty rethoric,

Want to be a general's chesspiece ?
You better start to peace for peace,
When will you start spacing for space ?
Do it right now, can never be to late,

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What is time but a good rythm and rhyme ?
Went from as a child havin all the time,
To as an adult havin less and less time,
Don't forget what is the best time : no-time ,
Because without time , you have all the time,

Return home to to your endless innerspace,
Endless depth lies behind the maskedface,
Enjoy your timeless sense of living eternity,
True hapiness wells up from within, are you feeling me ?

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Ignorance is Bliss

2008-10-12T02:25:00.000-07:00

Ignorance is Bliss,

Raelity is Shit,

Sweet Ignorance I Miss

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Must be blind,
Not seeing the unkind,
Happy smiling in sweet ignorance,

Feeling high with daily tell-a-lie,
Shiny people with shiny puppet hair,
From the electric tube ,
At me they Stare,

Discreet gestures appear,
Triggers in me hypnotic trancing,
In my mind the symbols are dancing,

--

Ignorance is Bliss,

Raelity is Shit,

Ignorance I Miss

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Tranced voodoo dolls smile at me,
A hollow cold glare piercing the electric veil,
I see Bewitched actors possessed,
Enslaved by beelzebub no less,

Mind feels dimmed and foggy,
Become empty shell of zombielike reflexes,
Under the unfluence of magical hexes,

Debilitating my human being,
No connection to
the soul plane hidden
By the cold unforgiving,

Rollercoasterride for the outward eyes,
I am freezing inside frame by frame,
Cold chilling, Cold illin,
Alas no Feelin,

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Truth is hard,

Ignorance is Bliss,

Feelin Pain is just too harsh,

I'd rather take the pills,

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accusations agaist mankind - redeem your Selfes

2008-10-02T15:58:00.001-07:00

Accusations Against Mankind

You disable your children
You abuse your children
You mindcontrol your children

You traumatize your children
You neglect your children
You miseducate your children

You leave your children
You despize your children
You sell your children

You slave your children
You emotionally scar them for life
You put fear in ther hearts instead of love

You kill their spirit

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But you are just you
Sad thing you have been abused yourselfes
You felt too weak to break free
So i cry for you as well

I know in your hearts you did not want this world
A soulless world filled with soulles people
Crying for freedom but living in slavery

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Crying is the first step
Being your emotions you redeems yourselves
and behold

Your Spirit comes to your aid
You stop being a slave
Your soul starts to shine bright from
The inside out

Finally acknowledging who you truly are
Reaching out of your shell of trauma
Flying freely again

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Understanding your predicament
Feeling strong enough to leave
The prison behind

Landing on happy soil reconnecting to humanity
To the precious youngs, the precious adults and the preciously aged of wisdom,
Even the animals who you do not need to eat

Knowing the sacrifice of the plantspirits
Because of love to creation
They give us life
Oxygen, food, medicine clothes and a roof over our heads,

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Praise for everything around us,
Only way to praise ourSelfes

Ode to Hermes

2008-07-22T01:43:00.000-07:00

From Hermes to Satan's example

The great gods of the ages,
have been worshipped by the sages.
the sheeple follow blindly,
Bowing to this fairy tale kindly,

The fantastic fables implanted in the mind,
From a young age a child will find,
It is lesser then all that is around,
It has to be the servant all year round ,

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The gods are there to teach me,
Like sheep they want to keep me,
But I rather follow Hermes' example,
Steal their fire and give it to my people,

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In all religions in excistence,
Penalty's are in place but you can be forgiven,
The gods you accept and live for,
Are psychic parasites leeching you,

You keep them alive and eternal,
Believe in their scam and you will forever crawl,
Toughts and emotions you think and feel,
Only serve god's needs,

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The gods are there to leech me,
They only want to eat me,
But I rather follow Hermes' way,
Acting in my own play,

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Here comes Hermes Trismegestus,
Much better for you then Jesus CHristus,
Hermes steals from god to live a free life,
While Jesus saves you but demands the biggest price,

Christ says you be like children blind,
To become enslaved beings instead of free mankind ,
The church propaganda enforces a false story,
It promises heaven but heaven is only for gods glory,

To the gods we are nothing but game and food,
Insignificant small dumb fools,
Just like the sheep are to us,
They also give us blind trust,

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The gods are there to hurt me,
They only want to kill me,
But I follow Satan's wicked footsteps,
Bow to no one but my own flesh,

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You receive many negative symbols,
Accepting them daily creates your fall,
The Holy rituals of the covenant,
are a nothing but a price for the blood of man,

Shining prophets and mystic storybook,
are just mindcontrol like a mental hook,
controls your body and your brain,
it's a shame, living bound by invisible chains,

They need you to only desire them,
They only feed you so you can feed them,
Weakness and finally death for you,
God is parasitic , you know it's true,

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Like cannibalistic predators we kill ourSelves,
Corrupting our soul and human flesh,
By using our force for human gains,
We can finally harness our emotional pains,

The gods must die just like cannonfodder,
Let them get weaker and eat each other ,
I just wont supply these Egregore's,
I'd rather devour Allah and his wicked glory,

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The gods are there to ritually murder me,
They only want to devour me,
But I follow Satan's great road,
Bow to no one, i carry my own load,